I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday who lives in a place that she isn't in energetic resonance with anymore and has known for a long time that she wants to move, but is afraid to move and constantly talks herself out of moving. Why do we hold on so hard? Even when we know it's time to let go. She said she's afraid of the unknown. Isn't that the crux of the matter when it comes to trusting Life?
Most of us have made enough errors in judgment that it's sometimes hard to trust our instincts and intuitions. Or, what we "think" our instinct or intuition is telling us. Sometimes the problem is not knowing if it's our instinct or some other impulse. How many issues overlay our instinct? How covered up is the instinct and how clear are the signals we're getting at any particular time?
For me, when it's instinct or intuition, it comes from a deeper place of knowing. It's an awareness that dawns on me and is unmistakable. I could deny it or ignore it, but it wouldn't feel good. And, I could try to talk myself out of it for any number of mental reasons, but that doesn't feel good either. And, it's not that what comes in through instinct or intuition is always easy, sometimes it's wrenchingly difficult and stretches me in very uncomfortable or painful ways. But, the knowing that what's being required of me is necessary, ultimately overrides whatever resistance I might initially have in regard to it.
The other thing that's sometimes difficult is that we might have followed our intuition into a situation only to have that situation change again very quickly. And, it doesn't always make logical, mental sense how things work out. And, we might not want to change again so quickly and dig our heels in a bit. But, Life is always moving and reacting in the moment. Life doesn't have any expectations as to how long something will take or how quickly it might change. Things just are what they are. We want to get comfortable and settle in and, once we do, we're loathe to move again. But, it's my feeling that Life is going to require us to change and move a lot more often as time goes forward than we've been required to do in the past.
Being able to adapt to a constantly changing landscape of people, places and events is going to serve us very well as we move into the future. I don't think Life is going to give us much chance to get too comfortable or feel too settled in. In order to respond to all the changes that will keep coming and only accelerate, we're going to have to lighten up and be ready to respond in the moment. The stability we'll feel will come from within ourselves, not from without. And, our ability to change as necessary will give us confidence. If we're able to respond to constant changes and keep moving, we're going to feel a lot better than if we hang on and feel that Life is crumbling from underneath us.
Why isn't this working anymore? Why is this so difficult now? Why doesn't this feel right? What am I doing wrong? Just because something worked in the past, doesn't mean it's going to keep working as time goes by. We might have been in resonance with something in the past and therefore it was easier for us. But, now, we've grown out of resonance with it and it's become much more difficult. It doesn't feel right anymore because it doesn't fit anymore. We're not necessarily doing anything wrong, but we've reached a point where it's time to let go and we're not doing it.
Once we're able to work through whatever resistance we have to letting go of whatever it is we need to let go of, we'll feel some relief and forward motion. Letting go of something from the past that no longer serves us is often difficult, but once we do it, we usually wonder why we didn't do it sooner. And, that's not to say that things suddenly become clear as to what we're going forward into or how best to do that, but just opening up to it helps. There's often a period of transition that we go through as we adjust into a new level of Life and different circumstances that can feel a bit like limbo for a while. But, as we expand into our new situation, clarity starts to come in and the path becomes more visible.
I'm working at being more comfortable in uncomfortable situations; at being able to move more quickly in response to what Life asks of me; at lightening up in all ways and needing less. I'm working toward a streamlined existence, a leaner way of living. I'm trying to listen more, respond quicker, adapt sooner, be more willing to change, and dance faster and more gracefully through whatever shows up. These are exciting times and much will continue to be demanded of us. But, this is what we signed up for, even though we didn't know what we were signing up for in any specific way. And, it's now time to embrace that decision and step up. The more we're able to let go and embrace what is, the smoother the journey will be. We have to leap into the great unknown and trust that Life is taking us where we need to go.